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[Sunday
03/19/06 at 11:11pm] |
Hey guys! I haven't updated lately but there really isn't that much going on. I seem to forget about lj...but I'll try to remember better now. Well we had spring breakthis week and it was really good. I need to just get away from everything. i didn't even have dance. Which made me sad. Me and Crash. We're still friends and we still love on another always. But for now I don't want anything with anyone. It's kinda like a second job or something. Maybe over summer I can find someone and be happy and not stressed and be able to give them my whole heart. I just need to give my feeligns a break. They've gone through alot. Well, tonight after church the youth group had a get together and played a game, ate, and sang. The game was awsome. It was called Mafia{sp?}. I was a killer haha. I would explain the game but you'd be readinh ALOT. Tonight when we sang I actually let my voice out and sang in front of people...not being catiousabout how I sound. And people actually complimented me on how beautiful my voice is. I was like, OMG! cause people have told me I have a horrible singing voice. So today was really nice. Church, hanging out, and compliments. Have I told you guys about my car? Well if I have you canr ead about it again. I got a 004 yellow mustang.
theres the good side...the other side is wrecked but my dad fixes up all our cars and has a car business for a living so I have complete faith in him to finish it. But I'm gonna go. School tomrrow. :(
Mena < 3
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[Saturday
02/25/06 at 12:48am] |
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Hey. I haven't updated lately....but thats ok. not much has happend but I'll fill you in on what has. Me and Matt I know for sure won't work out. Him and one of my friends started talking so it's all cool. And he knows that I like him alot...my friend told him haha, another frined. But I'm really cool with it, I don't mind. Just as long as they're both happy.I especially don't mind anymore since I've been talking to this one guy. His name is Aaron but he goes by Crash...it's like a family name. I've been talking to him for 3 days now...like you know actually exchanging words, but I've known him since like the beginning of the year. He's so sweet. He compliments me on my personality and my looks. Not just my looks. Which I love. We're almost exactly alike....seriously. We have so much in common. And we've talked alot in the past three days. He makes me feel really special...and we have a special connection. We've already told each other we love each other....and you're probably thinking...you're crazy no way you can love someone that quick...if you only knew. It's kinda like we were made for each other...no matter what the topic no matter what we always have something to talk about and it feels like I've known him since I was 5. People have told me that he doesn't just tell anyone he loves them, that when he really loves someone he'll say it till he's blue in the face. He's not the hottest guy at my school, but that doesn't matter to me. He means alot. There's only one catch.....he's a senior. I'm a freshman. He's about to turn 20 in May...I'm turning 16 in November. my parents won't go for it...:/ even though age doesn't matter when it comes to love. And you may think it's mistaken love.....trust me...I know mistaken love. He's almost quit smoking and he only smokes one when he gets really really pissed or stressed and I told him he should stop and he told me if I wanted him to he would. I told him striaght up i wanted him to stop and he said he's never smoking again...and know he means it. I've never been so happy. Today(friday) I was at my locker and i just put my book in my bag and kinda sat it down and closed the door and out of nowhere here comes Crash and pins me to the lockers...my hearts never raced so fast. And he told me on the computer that he was gonna lean in and kiss me but time ran short.Which it really did. But idk...I'm tired and I need to lay down...
I'll update later...leave me some feedback k?
love you guys
Mena <3
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[Friday
02/03/06 at 1:44am] |
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not liking life...at all....I feel completely lonely and gah...GR I HATE IT!!!!I hate not feeling good enough.
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[Tuesday
01/24/06 at 6:15pm] |
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I'M UPDATING....WOOH! Sorry it's been so long. I've been really busy! I'm a busy lady hehe! Well anyways this last weekend I went to winterfest in Texas. It was amazing!!!! It's where christians all over my area get together and go to this college and praise and worship god. A band played and they were incredible, we got 4 rolls from the stage and there were people doing back flips of the stage and we were on the camera for a little, outta like 2,000 kids me and my friends were on there. It was fun. The next day (saturday) we had classes and they taught me some stuff, then we went shopping for 5 HOURS!!!!. I bought 300 dollars of clothes haha. They were worth the money. And I decided before i went to Texas....about a week before that, I wanted to be baptized. So this sunday I'm gonna be baptized!!!! I'm excited. Winterfest really opened my eyes and made me realize that I have god in my heart and that he's waiting for me to give myself to him, and by washing away my sins it shows him I'm serious about this. Auh you have no clue how excited I am. But today in Science, you know the class with matt, it was awsome. Shelby wasn't there today so i sat in her spot which is in front of matt, i had my hands like on my sides and he put his arms through the openings of my arms, and like locked me down. I couldn't get out. And he put his head into my back and i layed my head on his and we were like that for so long. I was sooooooooo happy the ret of the day...I wanna be with him so bad. He's so awsomely incredible...haha yes he's all that. I'm gonna talk to him too....This is gonna be a good end of the month. Even if he doesn't feel the same way, he'll finally know how I feel. Guys...I'm extatic.
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01/18/06 at 1:04am] |
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[Saturday
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DAMNIT! I just got fricken down graded by my mom.....no wonder why my fircken self esteem is so damn low. I'm never gonna fill all her expectations. I'm never gonna be good enough. And on top of that my best friend is being an asshole.And damnit I have no one to talk to and I wanna call haylie but I don't want my frist time to talk to her to be like this. I'm crying my fricken heart out because I feel like a damn heartless person that can't do anything but make her mothers life worse. My mom threatened to give my baby away. my cat I've had since 3rd grade because I'm "negleting it" and he bit her so she came in her and said shit to me that made me start crying and crap and she said "I don't need this drama" I mean WTF? I'm fricken sick of not being good enough. I wanna crawl in bed never eat or drink again and maybe I'll die of starvation and not enough water. Maybe that will make her life better. And I was fricken happy too....I swear I can never be fucking happy. I'm sick of trying to be perfect. I'm sick of being put down by people I love. Guess fricken what. We fought about 17 minutes ago.....17 minutes ago was before 12 a lil bit. 2 years ago that day was the death of my aunt. My favorite fricken aunt...her sister. I mean damn I'm already having it fricken rough.....god I feel so sick and gah...I was reading today and another fricken good thing happened....I think I have borderline....not like anyone cares. No one cares or appreciates what I do anymore. DAMNIT and i try so fricken hard EVERY day she has no clue.....no clue what all I go through.
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[Tuesday
01/10/06 at 11:40pm] |
K so what Michael told me that made my world go crashing down was(**warning:chat speak is included in this short message**):"Well then fine. I dont care anymore its done, over and i wont hurt u anymore. Im sorry im so horrible. i cant be perfect. to help it all ill delete ur yahoo name and ur number. just remember i love u and ull never speak to me again."
That hurt me so bad you have no clue. But guess what I found out today. Guess....ok I'll tell you. Michael asked the girl out from pizza inn. She of course said yes. Yeah. When I found out I cried, but now I'm over it because I talked to my mom. I sware my mom can always fix this crap. I don't need Michael. If he'll stoop that low, to go out with a girl like that, lie to me, not be patient, not be understanding about my feelings, be a jackass, and even more stuff, then I don't need him. All he is, is a pretty face. And thats what I fell in love with. So now I'm gonna wait. I'm gonna wait for the one who will love me and wait for when I'm ready. My mom said if I see Michael and he starts talking about her I should say "Good for you" and act like I don't care. And I can do that now. I really don't care. Someone who truely loves you won't make you cry sad tears, but happy ones. I'm kinda messed up from crying and I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense haha. Cause possibly I won't. I'm tired and worn from dance so I'm gonna get some peep eye! Love yahs. lol
Mena < 3
I less than 3 you.
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[Tuesday
01/10/06 at 12:04am] |
Do this pleasered!
1. name:
2. birthday:
3. place of residence:
4. what makes you happy:
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. do you read my lj:
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. an interesting fact about you:
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. favourite place to be:
11. favourite lyric:
12. best time of the year:
13. time of year that makes you feel like shit:
14. mustache or beard:
RECOMMEND
1. a film:
2. a book:
3. a band, a song and an album:
PLUS
1. one thing you like about me:
2. two things you like about yourself:
3. put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.
4. POST A PICTURE OF YOU!
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[Monday
01/09/06 at 6:10pm] |
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[Sunday
01/08/06 at 2:04pm] |
K so Michael called me at 10 friday night telling me I had till 12 to make up my mind on if I wanted to go out with him or not. He gave me a 2 hour warning. Hello I'm a complex fricken person. I can't just have two hours to think it over and tell him something. Plus it was my dads birthday. Awsome day to have our aniversery on. I was talking to Kaycee...(the friend who's been telling me stuff about michael) and he was being a major jackass about it and she even said I didn't need that. So of course I kinda sorta said no. And ever since that night me and Michael's been talking about it and blah blah blah. And last night he wanted me to go to the movies and I told him I was going to the later one and he asked hat time and I told him IDK even though I did....and I asked him why and he said because he wanted to come. I never told him because I was afraid when I saw him I would cry and I just wasn't emotional stable for that. And about 2a.m. I sent him a text saying I was sorry for not telling him and thats it was rude. So this morning I got up and checked my cell phone and he sent 2 already and he said yeah it was rude and his plan went downhill. He was gonna tell me at the movies how much he loved me. yeah and we started talking and it was bad. So I don't know whats happening between us.
Me and Shelby are good again. We talked, I cried like I always do. So that made me happy that we're still friends. Oh and the story I was gonna tell. K so I spent the night at Danielle's/Dani's house (one of my new best friends) and so she likes this guy who is 19, she is 13.....big age difference, I know. They came by and we talked to them and then we went back inside and talked to them on the phone. And they drove by about 4:30 and we snuck out and went driving around with them till about 5:45 and he dropped us of....apperantly when we were just standing out there talking to them the first time they came by someone saw us and they called Dani's parents and she got in bad bad bad trouble. Her parents are like the devil. I feel so bad for her. But luckily they didn't tell my parents....whew. I would be dead. But yeah we had fun, nothing happened though. Even though there were 3 guys in the car. :) haha.
Last night I was talking to Dani and we were talking about michael, she's the girl I didn't want to hurt by going out with him, and I thought she was getting mad at me and stuff and gah that hit me hard and I started crying because of some of the stuff she said and finally I stopped and she asked me why I was crying. And I told her nothing, I'm ok now. And she replied "you never tell me shit anymore" and of course that made me upset, so yet againi started crying and I spilled to her why I was and she said she wasn't mad at me and stuff and I told her all the reasons why I was sad. Because of michael,beause I thought she was mad at me, my brother told me he didn't care about my life, and because in 3 days it'll be the 2nd year my favoritist Aunt has been dead. Amd I miss her so much. :\ But yeah I'm gonna go now, I gotsta do some stuff.
| Your Stipper Song Is | 
She Wants to Move by N.E.R.D.
"Her off beat dance makes me fantasize
(Her curves) She's sexy!!"
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Today has been reallllllllllllllllllllly crappy. My best friend Shelby is slowly but surely drifting away. Her attitude towards me is awful. So if she loses me and needs someone to cry to I'm not gonna be there, forget that. Oh and my friend that I was talking about that told me about michael flirting with another girl heard something else...but she's gonna straighten up the facts because she knows someone who knows him really well.....so she's gonna call him. Gosh I'm sick of hearing stuff about Michael and just blah. I don't even know what my friend heard because she won't tell me because she didn't want me to get upset over something that wasn't true.....which was probably best. Grrrr I wanna know what it is. X( I want Michael though with me like right now....just to feel his touch is awsome. I feel safe (course who wouldn't feel safe next to a body like that)and I just want this to all go away. Right now I'm like borderline depressed. Which is bad. And gah I just fricken found out this very second Michael is going to pizza inn to see that girl......and now I'm crying and grr....this is way too hard. And I just don't wanna talk about it anymore....
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[Thursday
01/05/06 at 1:01am] |
So I've been told I need to update. hehe Haylie ♥. I feel really crummy right now. I'm confused. I'm not really that sure of myself. I think it's cause I'm tired though. k so remember me talking about Michael some? He asked me out the day I met him. He's super hot. I'll put up his body.....omg nice. He's super sweet. But I'm not sure if I know the true him. I don't remember if I told you but he asked me out and gave me until Christmas to answear and I said no because my friend really likes him too. But he gave me another chance and I have to answear him by the 21st. I'm not sure. My friend says to say yes...and she got a boyfriend today wich is good. But I guess all I can do is talk to him while I have time to see if I know the true him. But I found out today that monday he went to pizza inn and flirted with a girl and got her phone number. Yeah...X( I almost started crying. And all freaking day today I thought about him. I just don't know. I asked him about it and he handled it very camly and he told me he loved me and that he was just trying to make a new friend. He said that when I was ready to get serious he was right there with me. And the girl who told me about him flirting with the chick said that the chick who told her thinks everyone likes her so you never know she could have over exaggerated or misunderstood. Or something like that. I think I need sleep. And tomorrow I can think it over. I wanna see him really bad though. I just wanna be hugged. And his hugs are awsome. I have a story to tell tomorrow....it's long so yeah I don't wanna tell it now..
Love you guys.
Mena
MICHAEL'S BOD
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[Sunday
12/25/05 at 11:47pm] |
1. Name someone with the same birthday as you.
Madison, one of my good friends. There are 2 other people who I'm friends with that have my birthday also.
2. Where was your first kiss?
I haven't had mine yet.
3. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
No. Not that I can remember haha.
4. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
Haha funny you should ask. I hit guys all the time. But just to make myself feel stronger than they are, which I probably am.
5. Have you ever sang in front of a large number of people?
No, if I did the people would be deaf from hearing horrible singing. I've danced in front of a large number of peopel though.
6. Whats the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
Eyes and smile. If its a guy, how hot they are. I'm kinda shallow, but who isn't.
7. What really turns you on?
When guys have six packs...auh melt.
8. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
We don't have a starbucks....my towns kinda lame.
9. What is your biggest mistake?
Not spending more time with my parents when I was younger.
10. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
Yeah...but not slitting my wrists. I swear.
11. Say something totally random about you:
I finally don't need a lap on to go to sleep.
12. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Yeah, Joss Stone with my hair wavy, and just because of my lips,Angelina Jolie
13. Do you still watch kiddie movies or TV shows?
Yeah, I'm 15 so I think it's aprropriate. :)
14. Did you have braces?
No, but I want them.
15. Are you comfortable with your height?
Kinda sorta, I want to be taller but i guess I'm alright where I'm at.
16. What is the most romantic thing someone of the opposite sex has done for you?
Be just totally in love with me.
17. How do you know when it's love?
I can tell when it's real.
18. Do you speak any other languages?
Not really. I have to learn spanish next year. I know a couple Italian words though.
19. Have you ever been to a tanning salon?
Yeah but I didn't go tanning. lol.
20. What magazines do you read?
Teen Vogue.
21. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
I don't think I have.
23. Do you watch MTV?
Heck Yes!
24. What's something that really annoys you?
Being asked question after question.
25. What's something you really like?
Boys.
26. Do you like Michael Jackson?
No really, he's ok.
27. Can you dance?
Yes Mam.
28. What's the longest you have ever stayed up?
All night.But usually till about 4.
29. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
Yeah :/
30. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
No...not yet...I wouldn't be surprised if I will be.
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[Thursday
12/22/05 at 6:46pm] |
K so someone told me Matt thinks I'm obsessed with him, which I'm not, I don't like him anymore. He doesn't have a heart and yeah it's a story thats hard to tell so I'm not even gonna try to explain it.But I've been told alot that I can do better and I actually have a really hot guy that wants me to start going out with him before christmas..XD so I don't know but Matt is just wanted as a friend now. I went to skate church last night and almost got beat up, but I'm ok now. And this guy took my cell phone and ran off with it and one of the grown up people took it from him and looked through my phone haha (it's a cool dude he's like 20)and called Cody. Do you guys remember him? Yeah it was funny. But I got tackled to the ground 3 times. By the guy who took my phone and ran with it. It looked wrong when we were on the ground haha. I jacked a belt off this dude that likes me haha. He's letting me wear it because I'm letting him wear my class ring from 8th grade.So I got a new studded belt haha. Me and Ian are talking really good again...I was on cam and I showed him my belt I got from Randy(the dude that likes me) and I said "See I told you I had his belt but it looks better on him" and Ian said "IDK it looks pretty good" haha XD
But I'm bored and I'm tired so I'm gonna go.
love ya
MenaBena ♥
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[Thursday
12/22/05 at 4:11am] |
Appearance
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.( more like ALL the time)
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.(I want a belly ring though)
[ ] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
College/School/Work
[ ] I'm in college.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/college/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework. I always DO.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of college/school.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I'm in highschool
Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something (.. my hand to my other hand..)
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my pants rip/drop in public
Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.
Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada. (I WANT TO THOUGH!)
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.(I've crashed a go-cart)
[ ] I've been skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
Relationships
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I'm a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted.
Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with depression.(If I went to the doctor I would be diagnosed most likely)
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic.(not for very long but I don't do it anymore, don't worry)
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.
Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying. I'm afraid of others dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. When I know them.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I'm a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.( my brother got it for me off the computer XD )
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name (my yahoo)
[x] I love being neat
[ ] I've copied more than 30 cd's in a day
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I would wear I've worn pajamas to school.
[x] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I'm in love with love.
[x] I'm guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I'm really ticklish. (on my sides)
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[X] My answers are totally honest
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[Tuesday
12/20/05 at 12:31pm] |
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I'm so upset right now. I fell for him again and he didn't catch me this time either. I just feel like giving up on everything right now. My heart just can't take it anymore. What has she got I don't have? I just want to know why this keeps happening. He led me on again and then today broke my heart. What a selfless no hearted jerk.
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[Monday
12/19/05 at 10:32pm] |
Ok guys....haven't updated in awhile so there's alot to tell. It ends up happy so stick with me.
Last week was awful. I had to see Brette and Matt walk together and all this crap, it was bad. Brette tried to make me jealous everyday, of course not working. Friday I finally talked to Matt. I was happy. So happy I could barely stand it. Saturday I went to the movies to get my mind off of things and it actually did. We almost got kicked out but it was fun. Shelby stayed the night and this girl Montana tried to break Shelby and her boyfriend up. Didn't happen. Sunday crap is still going on between them trying to get them seperated. Still didn't work. But I heard the best news of my life last night. I was told by a girl that talks to Brette that Matt told Brette he didn't want to be anything more than friends with her. OMG. I was smiling from ear to ear. I was happy. But today we got out of school at 1:55 and I didn't see Matt at all because we had all odd hour classes today, I have Matt 4th hour, so I was like it's ok I'll see him tomorrow. I got home and like Montana was saying she was talking to Matt. I have Matt's name on my list but he's not lit up. That means he put me on ignore. So I was sad. Not to long from then I was talking to Shelby on the phone and people on the computer. Out of nowhere matt pops up. I scream out of happiness. I swear it was so loud. Heres some of our convo.
Matt: what kind of ipod are u getting
!~MenaBena~!: a 30gb
Matt: video
Matt: ?
!~MenaBena~!: or something like that
!~MenaBena~!: yes
Matt: yeah me 2
Matt: black or white
!~MenaBena~!: really
!~MenaBena~!: white
Matt: aww i got black
!~MenaBena~!: cool
Matt: thats cool tho we are kinda twinkies i guess
!~MenaBena~!: yup
!~MenaBena~!: watcha been up to?
Matt: i gotta tell u something
!~MenaBena~!: yesm
Matt: im sorry 4 what i did to u about brette and all i found her tru side and i fucked up i know and im sorry i put u threw all that ive been feeling like a complete asshle cuz i made u cry and belive it or not that hurts me alot and i dont want to stop being friends with u over something that stupid
!~MenaBena~!: its ok....people make mistakes
!~MenaBena~!: i can understand
Matt: cool
Matt: so we cool
!~MenaBena~!: yes very
Matt: sweet
!~MenaBena~!: you don't know how happy i am
Matt: lol y
!~MenaBena~!: cause you're talking to me, i didn't think you were ever gonna talk to me again
Matt: yeah cuz i didnt know what 2 say
!~MenaBena~!: awww.
!~MenaBena~!: well i was never mad at you
!~MenaBena~!: at all i swear
!~MenaBena~!: I was just upset
Matt: well brette just did that 2 compete with u
!~MenaBena~!: i know
Matt: and i told her i dont wanna talk 2 her anymore
Matt: so ya
!~MenaBena~!: i've heard
!~MenaBena~!: brettes a backstabbing bitch haha im sorry
!~MenaBena~!: but yeah
!~MenaBena~!: but I'm just so happy you're talking to me
Matt: lol
Matt: yeah me 2
!~MenaBena~!: I feel so good right now
!~MenaBena~!: cause I relly do like you
!~MenaBena~!: really*
Matt: yeah thats cool
!~MenaBena~!: yeah
haha you guys don't even know how happy I am. His apologie meant so much. Because obviously he had feelings for me to feel bad for it.....and that just makes me like WOW happy. EEEEEE....I get to sit on him tomorrow. YES! Omg I get to be happy again. But I g2g rest my eyes. They are tired. I got like 4 hours of sleep and had tests all day today. Love you guys. I'll tell you how tomorrow goes!!!
MenaBena <||3
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[Friday
12/16/05 at 7:29pm] |
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yes!
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[Wednesday
12/14/05 at 10:53pm] |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
In November I got in line at the supermarket at the same time as someone else and I didn't yield (-8 points). In August I pulled over and changed ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) lilfoy's flat tire (15 points). Last Wednesday I didn't flush (-1 points). Last Thursday I gave crashcab a kidney (1000 points). In February I donated bone marrow to rockymarley in a life-saving procedure (300 points).
Overall, I've been nice (1306 points). For Christmas I deserve a new bike!
Sincerely,
menalicious |
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[Wednesday
12/14/05 at 4:33am] |
Some stuff about 9/11.
1.New York City has 11 letters
2.Afghanistan has 11 letters.
3.Ramsin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin Towers in 1993) has 11 letters.
4.George W Bush has 11 letters.
5.New York is the 11th state.
6.The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number 11.
7.Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9+2=11
8.Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers, was carrying 65 passengers. 6+5=11
9.The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9+1+1=11
10.The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number 911. Again, 9+1+1=11.
11.The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was 254. 2+5+4=11.
12.September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year. Again, 2+5+4=11.
13.The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3+1+1+2+0+0+4=11.
14.The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers incident
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